Nothing's left.

Once again.

I mean what should I expect right. I really did quite a dreadful thing. And I really was out of line. I honestly do regret it, idk if people can ever forgive me. Hope so :/

I miss having him around. It's like now that he's gone, I'm just kinda like *meh. My hand's feel empty not texting him. I still think about him, still think about what it could've been like. I mean I didn't want it to end but after everything I guess that's what we should do. He thinks we've lost it anyway and that there's no future for us. I just think that 2 months is still considerably early imho. And alternatively I would've carried on talking to him and all. But he says it's gone, so I guess. Gone.

Plus after all that I've said, nothing much I can ask for right. Whatever it is, it's over. I'm gonna have to deal with that.

I don't like talking to the guy still after things end because I know I will end up still stuck on the whole me and him idea. And it's better if I just stepped away. Even though right now I'd give anything I like call him and talk to him like nothing even happened.

Just thinking about it makes me wanna cry.

And I'm just gonna say everything here because no one reads this anyway.

I apologised to Georgia and she didn't say anything and that bugs me but what to do.

I apologised to both Brand and Mav- omg till now I still can't believe they thought it was them. I was talking about J & M oh gosh!? But yeah it bugs me that they can easily not believe me.

I apologised to Wee- and it's overrr.

I keep saying it so that like yknw it hits me. But it still doesn't. Yet. I think.

Fuck I'm so screwed luhhhh.

Okay I need to go cry.

xx